1 day to go!

its interesting to think that this part of our lives
right now is the most important,
something that we cannot afford to lose or fail.
i wonder what we would think if it was 10 years later.
would it still be as important to us?

hsc is something really big isn't it?
right now it feels like it.
yet why am i so lazy?
but i've done a lot of work these holidays.
english i've improved a lot.
and i'm sure that i'll do way better than trials,
its just a matter of memorising.
and i really needa calm my panic,
otherwise i won't think clearly,
and that would be my worst enemy.

but why am i so relaxed now?
is my brain telling me that i'm actually really prepared?
i'll needa feel that way on the exam day.
does anybody feel like they're trying their best?
exactly. what would you define as 'the best,'
i'm trying. maybe not the best.
but its quite close don't you think celia?
is it even possible to 'try your best?'
but even if i'm not doing work,
looking at the clouds,
driving my sister back and forth,
spending time with family,
day dreaming, seeing, listening,
blah blah...
i don't regret it.
i guess that would count as me trying my best.

who doesn't like to procrastinate? to play?
its just that when you're doing those things,
you shouldn't regret it.
regretting is a really bad feeling i think.
thinking, 'what if this had happened,'
like what if i had spent the time doing an essay?
still. the time has passed.
suure go ahead and imagine all those possible scenarios,
imagine all the possibilities,
but its not gonna change, (unless you get a time machine or something,
in that case...hah.)
but you could always imagine what lies ahead.
like 'what if...'
yeah. i'm not too sure myself.
but you get what i mean.

the english paper is in one day,
i wonder how i'll do,
but i've been improving so that's great.
good luck to everybody!!
its the most exciting times of our lives. xD

i didn't get much done today,
except i printed out all my essays.
so that i can start memorising the key points. =)
i've been watching a drama for the past couple of days too.
its interesting,
and so i'm really gonna fail hsc. haha.
but why so pessimistic for?
i know i'll do my 'best' on the day,
and its not like i don't know anything. :)
yosh.

okaaaai~ i feel quite content.
why?
shouldn't i be stressed?
i dunnoooo... are you guys stressed?
don't be stressed.
you've done a year of studying.
and these past few days too.
you've worked hard.
and so just 'try your best'
hahaha and i'm pretty sure you guys are more
hard working than me...
i didn't even do anything productive today. lol. =D
the days have passed with a mixture of
lazy days and productive days.
its been fun.

but creative is really bugging me.
and what is defined as true happiness?

hahaha. okai enough.
goodnight and sweet pea dreams everyone!
it'll be quite sweet after hsc indeed.

no regrets. remember!
:]